family , friends . someone special

assalamualaikum ♥

i started thinking about life and death lately . i know it sounds weird and scary . but haritu cha lalu perkuburan kristian and my dad said "cha , that is where your aunty's will end up one day"
- if you still dont know this yet , my dads chinese mix with indian . and my mum is malay .
- my auntys are on my fathers side so that makes them christians .

back to the topic , when my dad said that , i was like OMG . I just realized that all this while my auntys were the one who took care of me . and if i had any problems with my boyfriend i would tell them . but lately i haven't been close to them . then from that cha pikir , sempat ke diorang tgk cha kawin . cha pikir after 20 years , mama and abah mcm mana . sempat ke cha nak bg mama and abah hidup senang . boleh ke cha jaga adik cha . i thought about my future . how am i going to take care of my mum dad and sister if i dont find a good job . all this while , cha pentingkan kawan-2 and boyfriend daripada family . its not that friends are not important , they are , but i think its time for me to spend time with my family . i do love all of them . but i have to be fair . its time for me to show my love for my family , my friends , and when i have one , i'll have to show it to my boyfriend too .