there goes my heart

assalamualaikum .
this post is specially for him .

kebelakangan ni kita selalu gaduh kan ? and yes , im so sorry sebab bulan ni i selalu badmood , tapi you tahu kan i bukan sengaja , this month i stress sangat you . you tahu apa jadi kat parents i kan you ? and pasal kawan2 i kan ? and also studies i kan ? but everyday , i balik sch i mesti tunggu u balik kerja sebab i nak text you . bila you balik , you text i , i happy but tgk2 you cakap you busy , you nak keluar dengan kawan2 you , you nak jamming . i bukan halang you , tapi you tolong la paham , i nak jugak spend time dengan you . ni text pun tak , apa lagi nak jumpa you . i tak marah langsung if you keluar dengan kawan2 you , but you text pukul 7 cakap nak keluar , you suruh i tunggu you , you cakap kejap je . but kalau i tak text you , sampai pukul 1 pagi pun you tak text i . you kena paham , i kena bangun awal , i sch . cuba bayangkan setiap hari benda sama jadi , i memang tak dapat contact you langsung kan ? then pasal that thing you said to me semalam , you tahu tak apa you cakap tu menyakitkan hati ? but , yeah , that's life . maybe we were not meant to be together . yesterday , i asked you , if i tak text you , you paham kan ? because you sendiri kata you rimas . then you cakap sampai mcm nie sekali i buat you . apa yang i buat dekat you ? you nak i buat apa lagi ? then theres today , you yang tak contact i langsung , so what should i think ? is it over ? for me , kita biar macam ni je la you . i tak sanggup nak cakap yang its over and i tak sanggup dengar you cakap . so , lets just assume that we are over since we stopped texting each other .

ps : iloveyou